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You Lied to Me About God
A Memoir
By Jamie Marich
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"An intimate and important memoir of deconstructing and reconstructing faith after abuse ... a spiritual memoir that does not shy away from abuse, queerness, or the multifaceted character of God." Kirkus Reviews (starred review) A courageous, vulnerable, and spellbinding memoir that explores with visceral impact what happens when harm starts at homeand is exalted as Gods will For readers of Unfollow and Jesus Land: Jamie Marich explores spiritual abuse, intergenerational trauma, and weaponized faith At nine years old, Jamie Marich asked God to end it all. Doing it herself would be an irrevocable sin: an affront to the church and her fathers God. She prayed instead for the rapture, an accident, a passive deathanything to stop the turmoil of feeling wrong: wrong in her body; wrong in her desires; wrong in her faith in a merciful God that could love her wholly as she was. You Lied to Me About God explores the schisms that erupt when faith is weaponized, when abuse collides with the push-and-pull of a mixed religious upbringing tyhat tells you: no matter which path you chooseno matter what you know in your heart to be trueyoure probably damned. With resilience, strength, and gut-punching clarity, Marich takes readers through a tumultuous coming-of-age marked by addiction, escapism, spiritual manipulation, misogyny, and abuse. She shares with unflinching detail the complicity of her mothers silence and the lengths her father went to assert dominance and control over her body, her desires, her identityand even her eternal soulfor her own good and with a side of televangelistic hellfire. Hitting a breaking point, Marich embarks on pilgrimage: from shrines in Croatia to ashrams in Florida, she reckons with what it means to come home to a faith that heals and accepts her wholly as she is: in her queerness, in her body, and in her deep relationship to an expansive and loving God.
"An intimate and important memoir of deconstructing and reconstructing faith after abuse ... a spiritual memoir that does not shy away from abuse, queerness, or the multifaceted character of God." Kirkus Reviews (starred review)
A courageous, vulnerable, and spellbinding memoir that explores with visceral impact what happens when harm starts at homeand is exalted as Gods will
For readers of Unfollow and Jesus Land: Jamie Marich explores spiritual abuse, intergenerational trauma, and weaponized faith
At nine years old, Jamie Marich asked God to end it all.
Doing it herself would be an irrevocable sin: an affront to the church and her fathers God. She prayed instead for the rapture, an accident, a passive deathanything to stop the turmoil of feeling wrong: wrong in her body; wrong in her desires; wrong in her faith in a merciful God that could love her wholly as she was.
You Lied to Me About God explores the schisms that erupt when faith is weaponized, when abuse collides with the push-and-pull of a mixed religious upbringing tyhat tells you: no matter which path you chooseno matter what you know in your heart to be trueyoure probably damned.
With resilience, strength, and gut-punching clarity, Marich takes readers through a tumultuous coming-of-age marked by addiction, escapism, spiritual manipulation, misogyny, and abuse. She shares with unflinching detail the complicity of her mothers silence and the lengths her father went to assert dominance and control over her body, her desires, her identityand even her eternal soulfor her own good and with a side of televangelistic hellfire.
Hitting a breaking point, Marich embarks on pilgrimage: from shrines in Croatia to ashrams in Florida, she reckons with what it means to come home to a faith that heals and accepts her wholly as she is: in her queerness, in her body, and in her deep relationship to an expansive and loving God.